The fuck up was actually over 12 years ago, but I just found out recently. I dated a girl when I was about 19. I was a late bloomer and I had only been with one girl before that. We had a great time and had tons of fun. We understood each other perfectly. One day I invited her over and things got pretty hot real quick. I was going down on her and then it happened. I came in my underwear. I was so ashamed and my reaction was to try and hide it. I said I had to go to the bathroom to get the condom, which was true. I cleaned myself up and rushed back. Now it takes a while for me to reload. I'm like a musket, not a machine gun. So she said now it's her turn to please me. My little guy did not react. A combination of nature and shame made it impossible for me to get hard. Trying to play it cool, I told her I was somehow not in the mood and we should just chill for a bit. She said okay, but the night was ruined. After that contact dwindled and she ended up moving, almost 13 years later we ran into each other. It was awesome. This girl's great. We are now over 30 and doing very well in life. We hit it off right away and went for a drink. We started joking about the past and we started talking about that night. She then tells me she really liked me and wanted a relationship with me. She was just so ashamed that she couldn't get me hard and that's why she didn't contact me anymore. Fuck my life. I started laughing and told her the truth. I jizzed my pants while going down on her. After that we couldn't stop laughing. Unlucky for me, she has a boyfriend and I was moving to his country in the next couple days. So boys, if you jizz your pants, be honest about it. Girls might be flattered.