Don't be late on this, but I know that you're depressed, but I'm gonna give you some advice. Go to the Lord, repent of your sins, tell him, you know what, I'm depressed Lord, I've done a lot of bad things in my life, but you know what, only you can take them, and only you can solve them, and only you can give me the mind of peace. Just know he's there rooting for you, and so am I.