It's so hard being a clown They laugh with you, but sometimes they're laughing at you, and it's very hard on my mental health. I wish I wasn't a clown. I wish I didn't go to clown clubs I wish I didn't do all the affiliates that I had to do to get to this fucking circus performer But hey, I Chose this life, and I can't back down now I have to be a clown for the rest of my goddamn life. That's who I am, that's who I always will be, and I I just can't run away anymore