So my parents have shown up for the past week and it's been the worst week of my life I've yelled in ways that I haven't yelled before I've turned into some thing that I am ashamed of effectively because about two years ago when it was my birthday and they took it over that put into motion a whole bunch of negativity and they've been fighting Who they are since then by pretending to do things like for example when I when I first got to Rhode Island and I was staying in my place I had a neighbor like sexualize me that was my first person that I invited over and I needed a break from all of that but he didn't seem to understand that and he said he was in love with me and he had a T said that was like half matched his tea side and it was triggering in the sense that it reminded me of Duncan from alcoholics anonymous and that unresolved stuff from Scott Jenkins And so like that happened and then I called them and they don't show up they they know I'm drowning in the place they know I'm just not getting out of bed and so they're allowing me to use their credit card but that's it just here is money and that's the story of my life with them so this move out they showed up for it because they needed to show up to clean up the place and move me out they didn't show up for me and The thing is I've needed doctors and dentists and all that stuff but them being present and I'm sort of controlling the narrative like I don't feel like I'll ever feel free or that I'll ever get proper medical attention so I'd rather just stay in bed and so I'm at the hotel though staying in bed