because when I wake up I dreamed to be somewhere where it's magical. It's involved so many people that just know how to act among themselves, talk to others among themselves, not talking bad, not hurting others, not not creating a group or just being ruse, no rapping about dumb shit, the hoes, I'm gonna get the hoes pregnant, I'm gonna smoke cigarettes or smoke weed crack or smongs all day and night drinking. I don't want to do that. I don't want to have to go through no no abortions, no no people who choose to talk just talk bad about other people. I don't want to be this person. I'm not happy with who I am. I just want to be accepted. That's my dream.