So I talked about this very briefly earlier but I kind of had a breakdown about this today and I want to come back on here and talk about it more but I'm honestly like so sad that I don't have anyone to invite to throw my son a big birthday party like it just is one of those times where like it really hits you not having like a village not having a big family not having a lot of friends not really having anyone in your life you know And the only people who are like in another state so like my dad who's like our only family member really that we have he's in another state all of my step kids minus one are in another state and the one that's here and Florida is still four hours from us so it's just like it's just I'm so excited I'm so looking forward to it and I want to do everything I can to make him feel special and to celebrate him turning one but I'm also just like so sad like I really wish that I had a big family I really wish that I could throw a birthday party but I'd like the reality is if I throw my birthday party like it's just gonna be me and my husband and maybe like my one friend and maybe like his one friend Like I don't know I don't know it's just really hard sometimes it's just like I said one of those times were gets to me like not having anyone I'm not having anyone really and that's why I came online and started looking for mom friends online on social media because I truly don't have anyone in my life and I just want to say that if you are in the same boat like you're not alone And I totally I totally know what it's like and I'm so sorry

Hey Katie oh my gosh I can resonate with this so much my son just turned three and I also have like I would say a small village to like a solo village kind of mama and we as a small family of three ended up going on a little like road trip mini Vacay day trip for his birthday and you know it's definitely possible to find the light in like these kinds of things

This is how I felt growing up I had like no family at all no friends no nothing but a parents always it's only special for me and I always felt included in it helped a little bit so it's not that you're doing everything you possibly can and he'll enjoy every single moment with you and he won't miss what he doesn't have right and maybe one day you'll meet a bunch friends and have a big birthday party so We can't go on it as much as hard as it is

I totally understand this has happened to me so many times but no you always have me and you can always talk to me up at me whenever you want

Don't worry, mama. He's one. He really is not going to know. Just spend the day doing fun things with him. And know that as he gets older, he will make friends and he will have bigger birthday parties then. And chances are, you're going to make friends too. So, let's give it time, hon.

Hey mama I definitely feel you on this if we lived a lot closer I will definitely be there for you I completely understand how that is like how with all of my kids like no one was there like even like my oldest is a seven and no one has a game does birthday parties really except for like my side of the family but that's only like my mom and Doesn't

I was the same way but I think just as long as the people that mean the most to him And that are close and actually care about him show up then that's all that matters

Oh yeah, I definitely didn't know how you feel. It's his first birthday. No one came except for the neighbors that we got to be really close with in our apartment. They were the only ones that came for his birthday.

That's so hard and first birthdays feel so important but at the same time it's one of those things that they're not gonna remember and as they get older they will meet people and have more friends and more people to invite to the parties

I am so sorry girl that you had a breakdown about that I'm so sorry I hope everything goes well and I hope that You have a party for your son and everybody can come you know I am I am that's all I hope you have a better day today I am a better night tonight happy Wednesday

Oh girl I understand you I feel the same way and I feel like for me it's not necessarily that I don't really have the people I think it's the money that it would take to gather all those people in one place you know it's like having the venue having the food and having a decorations I think thinking of all of that as well overwhelms me and I just rather keep it like super super simple but if I have the money I think I'll be able to pull like a lot more people