Oh my goodness hi guys my kind of took a break this week I kind of disappeared my mental health has not been the best for a lot of different reasons there's a lot of things kind of affecting it but it's just really like discouraging and disheartening like if you've struggled with mental health or mental illness you know how it is when you've been doing so good for so long and then all of a sudden it just hit you and you're like crap why am I feeling like this again I haven't felt like this in so long so that's kind of where I'm at I'm super emotional and just kind of all over the place so I've just been kind of off line because I don't really know what supposed what to say I'm not like I don't know I'm just not having a great time I'm not having fun like there's nothing fun or exciting or cool to share it's just kinda same old same old and mental struggles so I hope you guys are all doing well though it's the weekend so we made it through the week I'm excited for Mother's Day tomorrow it's my first Mother's Day as a mom and not just a stepmom and I shouldn't say just a stepmom but you know it's my first Mother's Day as a mommy so I'm looking forward to it and I hope you guys all have a great weekend let me know if you guys have anything fun planned I think we're gonna go to the park and lake and just kind of hang out just me and my husband and my son And yeah I guess that's it I just wanted to check in and let you guys know where I've been and send out some good vibes I hope you're all doing a better than I am and yeah just let me know if there's anything you guys are struggling with anything you want to talk about anything you want to vent about anything you need to get off your chest here's the place because I'm on the struggle bus as well so yeah but I hope you guys are all doing well though and I will definitely be back next week