Oh once I am always tapping into my own words side of my personality and more so than ever and what I do is I look at myself and I look at my accomplishments and I think what makes me an awesome person what makes me so much better than some of these other you know boring vanilla people And and that's when I am like I like to wear lots of colors I have a sense of style I'm not afraid to express it I'm not afraid to wear lots of make up or wear a minimal make up or do whatever I want I have like a interior design aesthetic that is bright and happy and lots of pink in and like hyper feminine but I also have this masculine side to my fashion in my personality and I have accomplished some pretty cool things in my career I'm very proud of and I know how to come in the room and I know how to get peoples attention and I know how to be funny and I know how to be kind and interesting and and knowledgeable on so many different things and just like engage people and just do things that are just awesome and so it's like I have to like remind myself of those things like that I'm not an imposter I really am awesome I'm really freaking bad ass and there are a lot of people in this world who are not and I need to remember that like I'm cool in someway like I might be weird but I'm a good weird

And I need to continue my point so whenever I feel like somebody was chosen over myself and I start to feel like there's something wrong with me or then I'm not good enough I go and then I look at myself and I look at the other person and I think actually I'm a rainbow and they're just boring vanilla