Okay, so my, uh, friend, she had that same issue where she just liked, she liked the idea of dating a man as if she was a man herself, like in a gay relationship. She really liked the idea of a gay relationship, but she doesn't want to be a man. And I'm assuming that's a similar type of case. Um, I'm just trying to sum this up. You could try out being genderfluid, or you might be just into pegging. I don't know. Talk to other people, get other people's opinion.