I like to complain the most about my life and everything I'm going through but I feel like I don't have a good excuse for all the time I have a good friends to help me the best for me and my times of me I never wanna smile she's there she makes me smile but I have to put on a :-) to her to make her feel comfortable to make her understand it whatever this is the one she's making me feel good I try so hard to keep all my rotation but it's really killing me emotionally Is hello I really don't know I am so tired of this life every day I think about what if I was not born but if I could just disappear you be able to better you know