And the crazy thing is that this is all free and have access to the Internet access to books you can just go online and search something up and learn that you know these things will help you in the long term

I 100% agree with you, 100% at the end of the day, it's I don't know, it's hard to put into words but I totally agree, I totally agree because at the end of the day, your persona is not who you are that, who you are as a person is nothing to basically, I don't know how to put it but no, I actually feel this one as well it actually goes to a situation I'm in at the moment that, I'm so happy I find this thing, I really am