I am sometimes sometimes not often mom I don't want Saints sometimes but most of the time I just think about him ending it I'm not suicidal

I'm so I'll try to think about maybe I should just try to jump off a bridge or go myself in front of the car you know like what's the point of being here anymore like it doesn't feel the same anymore we live in our last days I'm like bro what's the point in being here nowadays like just off yourself like come on out like it's so easy like what Subway

Yes.

Yes, I definitely do.

I mean I do I kind of think about where I am at now compared to like where I was a few years ago and then where I wanna be in like 23 even five years

I do all that while I lift weights because if I do think of that I do connected to Preston so careful with that

Yeah all the time and motivates me to get to be where I want to be

So I don't often think about this but periodically I like to self reflect and see the progress I've made in my life and yeah yeah it's good yourself reflections good do it

Yes definitely like most days maybe each week