this is crazy that's how I feel about me playing football like, all the stuff, the accolade that I've done I've been, this is my 19 year playing you know what I'm saying I'm here, sharing a tear thinking about, you know what I'm saying all the hard work that I put on the field the teams that I played you know, my contribute my hard work, my determination part of that being wanting to be part of a family whatever, yeah it makes you think when I leave I don't got nobody going past this gym too You know what I'm saying? It's sad, but the truth.