Trust me, especially if I'm in my manic state and then there's some money involved, oh, I'm excessively spending, I might impulsively say or do something, and then I'm like, fuck, I didn't mean to do that.

That is like literally if I have money I'll end up broke probably negative and then if I have anything to say to somebody and they piss me off oh guess what you're getting it and even then if you don't piss me off you're probably still gonna get it whether it's a funny dirty flirty or stupid

Absolutely. Trying to bring more awareness to the disorder and be more transparent about it.