So I can't wait to go see my doctor and I have an appointment with a mental health specialist next Thursday but I am excited I'm also nervous about because I'm just ready to be a happy mom and not be done with our mental health it's just become shit honestly become shit and I question my life and being a mom every single damn day which I shouldn't be right and I have no shame in saying that like a small should be more able to be more open and about her mental health and how are struggling and without being judge straight Here I am I'm advocating for all your mama is that thing that you can stay silent don't fucking say silent you know open up about your story about your journey because your journey can help and some other mom I can help her her life her mental health and yeah just open up about your journey if you want to obviously but I'm here to advocate for you all were staying silent decide to say silent that's Toyoki too but make sure that you do see that mental health help that you do need if you need it