The way I see it if I open that book about my life and there is no enemies so lovers trope I have been something completely wrong and the book Shawn not be finished

No there's no way that I can't read this book I mean I know myself and I know that it'll make me feel anxious all the way and through the rest of my life just

If I read it, does it give me the ability to constantly know the way I might die, I might possibly die, and how to avoid it? Because if it does, that's a kind of cool superpower.