It seems like men are more interested in settling down, most men, when their dicks don't work anymore. When they got limp dicks. And then they, or they're close to getting sick and dying on their dick bed. I was raised Christian. I was raised in a church, so dating pastors and deacons and ministers and all that was a thing for me, and they were just all the same there. They're all the same. That's it, they're all the same. A lot of them, very few aren't, and the ones that aren't are usually

I have never met a man that was spiritual and was genuine with it, majority of them are using it to establish dominance control, uh, manipulation, like very few men that I met that were spiritual, that had gifts and were talented and had great knowledge but they hearts were not right so, it's just no end I mean I gotta give up, it's 21 years it's 21 years, I just gotta say it's not gonna happen and it's okay, like, it's okay

I do know what I like and I've been single for a very long time, uh, it's just, I just don't believe it's my fault. This has been going on since I started dating at 17 years old, I'm about to be 40, this has always been a thing, always. As soon as, I don't give it up or as soon as sex is not, uh, on their terms, I didn't want nothing to do with me anymore. So, it's just, ah, it's ridiculous, there's no middle ground because if you do have sex and they become addicted then all you are is sex.

I love sex, I find sex healing I find it soothing, relaxing It's kind of like a great reliever of stress It's a way to bond and connect On an intimate, emotional, mental, physical, spiritual level I love sex, I love men But don't put me under no terms when I first meet you Don't put me and say, oh, this is what's gotta happen In order for me to continue anything with anyone

I don't like when I feel rushed, I don't like when I feel pressured. I don't like how it's like, yeah it's so much more important than any other factor of getting to know anyone. That's why I don't like, and in my experience every time I do have sex with a guy all they want is sex afterwards and you know, I get told why, I be told I was the best, whatever the case may be. I don't that, I don't care, that's still annoying.

Yeah, it has always been the same It's always me being pressured to have sex Being pressured to do things that I don't want to do Since I've been dating And if I don't engage in whatever sexual act That they want me to on their timing It's just completely disregarded The only time it doesn't happen like this Is when I already have sex Then when I already have sex with him It's hard to get rid of him Luckily not all Luckily not all But a majority of them It's too much

It's too much because like I said, I'm all for sex but it has to be some form of balance. You still have to meet people's emotional, mental, physical, or spiritual needs. Like it can't just be only solely about sex and expect to have a healthy relationship or anything like it's just always been an issue so yeah, it's a long story.