So, you know, there was, I'm continuing my story, this part two, you know, there were girls, you know, who could have possibly been having sex soon, but their mind is a little bit more mature to where they're like, well, she doesn't have to, you know, be giving up herself, you know, just because I am, I can still be friends with her or whatever, because I'm not supposed to be doing this anyways. you know you had those black girls or whatever and so you i could still be cool with them or whatever until they you know got up an age where dick was the only thing that mattered to them so it was very hard for me growing up to find black girls to hang out with who penis did not matter to too soon. You know, very hard. So on stereo, you know, running into women, you know, who tell the stories about, you know, running around on playgrounds and let boys touch on them and, you know, how they were the popular this, this, that. You're not popular as a little Black girl unless you're letting little boys touch you. Yeah, you're cool amongst the boys, but yes, they're getting their free feels on your stupid ass. So you can pretend I was around my cousins. Girl, yo cousins was trying to freak on you and I'm not even trying to be funny. I'm just being honest. It's honesty hour and honesty time. We're going to stop bragging about being one of the guys and a tomboy. Nobody cares. You were the freak of the week. Not saying, you know, in general, but it's like in the eyes of whoever you are around you were the freak of the week so put that dumb ass badge down please ma'am you still have that attitude of where you need to be seen as the best you know the best at nothing