I always feel the need to talk and open up about whatever's going on right inside my brain. But I don't know the topic to come up with. So it kind of always confuses me. Running low on economy plus my toxic family tries to control me with their stingy hands. I come from a strict and controlling family. Not to mention they are stingy too, despite being rich. So I had to think of myself. If I came from a poor family, how was it going to work out? In order to become successful, I had to try any single possible way for success. Because to be successful, you kind of have to be mean. If that makes sense. That's what I'm doing right now. I had to think like that in order to achieve something. Because I've always been mean to people around me. It's always been. I don't know what to do with that. I haven't actually studied anything yet. My exam is coming up soon. I don't want to get failed or detained once again like I did before. That's going to be worse today because I already have lots of backlogged subjects from previous semesters. If I don't make it, I'm going to lose one more year like I did before. I'm not going to do that now. I'm not going to take that risk.