Does anybody else was the person that they thought they were going to be because I'm really really struggling with that I struggle for with like I have a disability and it's like a visible disability I use a walker to walk sometimes cause I was in a car accident and I was in a car accident and had a couple other accidents on namely got hit by a car full of an escalator got hit with am I train mirror well it was moving which was not fun just a lot of stuff like that and I haven't had a chance to look really recover from any of it and As a person with a disability as a woman of colour as a queer woman of colour there's so many barriers that I faced to just like existing like I am on like disability benefit of them on all the SP and the amount that they give you is not enough to live it's not nearly enough to live and there's just so many things that I have to just me being alive is a political stance Just me continuing to be alive the political stance and I just feel like there's so many pairs to access and I've been fighting all these things for so long that I just don't have any fight left in me and I really don't know what to do about fees I'm starting to not like things that I used to love like one of my all of my many jobs is that I make songs for film and TV which are really proud of but I haven't made a song that I like in a really really long time and I'm just really struggling at ugly don't enjoy things there are used to go anywhere in and just