Okay, I don't know you but I have to tell you right now You are so real for this your feelings are incredibly valid and I have been there done that But honestly what really helped me was dating myself. I know that sounds really crazy But taking myself out on solo dates, you know buying ingredients at my local grocery store to make a meal for one Watching my favorite movie texting and calling up people I haven't talked to in a while, you know, doing things that bring joy. Hope that helps.