Do you ever think about where you would be or what your life would be like if you didn't have your your kid or your first kid like how differently your life might've gone or I think about this all the time like if I hadn't worked at a certain restaurant I would've known that my friend I wouldn't of moved to where I moved to you and I wouldn't of met my husband I wouldn't of had my kid and it's kind of blows my mind and I can't even imagine where I'd be or what I'd be doing but as Amy else ever thought about this